althought that is not the real title of this post, it had to be the first item today!! who was watching the mheshim.iwa thingy on Kt.n>? who does that to grown men/!?? who put ALL OF THAT make up!? foundation? I knew the OD makeup foolishness with us womenfolk was rampant but on men!? muthee? FOOORESH!!
in other random news.... I've got a feeling... that NO... its not gonna be a good night... sometime back, like way back...I used to get this urge to go kill myself(in a way that the good Lord would not send me to hell) like e.g pretend not to see the speeding bus or jump infront of the "range" in athu...but i got over that and when i look back at why, I want to beat mself to a pulp... no, it was NOT a boy... even I'm not that dumb... am generally a heavy melancholic, deep thinkin, keep to yourself so yeah... so lately I've been getting them feelings again... Trust! I'm in a happy place...well almost if you dont count that I still hate my job(I'm a glorified sales person, only with a fancy schmancy title...(titles are sh!t btw) but generally I am in a not so bad place...so what is the problem then? I do not know.... I just keep doing my eulogy in my little head and seeing peeps weep wondering who would be the saddest and who I'd leave what for...lol I know I AM crazy... i guess this too shall pass... I wonder what people would say about me when I died....
other random excited ish... were doing a birthday wknd for one of my girls out of town... suwit! *cant wait* but were doing shared rooms...*aaargh!!!I like to think alone!!* (I have a thing about personal space people... )
I have an inate fear of giving birth but I want twins soooo bad!!! I could give a lung for em... cute adorable twinkies that will confuse the hell out of me... no, I'm not preggers...YET! yes, we have been trying... came off the BCPs late feb... people, stop with the pressure, I get it, love-marriage-children-grandchildren...I friggin get it! hail! she just got married last year... back off!*snarls*
speaking of which, our 1 year anniversary is coming up this weekend, i sense nothing planned *GULPS* see the kind of girl I am is, I make a friggin fuss over peoples birthdays, baby things, promotions, gigs, etc cuz i think THATS how it should be...(TRUST ME<>) but I am a total fuss ball when it comes to events, totally misunderstood.....
Whats for dinner: chaps & stew and butter-cheese spinach
PS: Pork is the best thing in the whole entire world!!! like ever ever ever!!! esp. the skin... *getting the shakes*
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