c'est la vie

...and sometimes can be mad unfair this here life... here's the situation... so I already said earlier I am a glorified sales person right? and I HATE  LOATHE it!!!! with every damned bone in my body... every fibre on me head... I know I know, you get it! I hate it... now that that's cleared... I want to give you the background of this here little story... so I've been in sales for the last 5 years...(I know, shut up!) I will tell you this... God absolutely loves me, If I ever had a doubt, my stint in sales proves it... when I think it cant get any worse, in comes a huge sale... Not my efforts (Honest Engine!!) Its not like most of the time I go actively looking out for the sales... HE just does bless me with them... so what do my bosses think? I'm like the AWESOMEST thing they've had in sales since... I don't know...sliced bread sounds old so insert CLEVER quip here(since.......) NOT! I am not sales person!!! just because I meet em targets and haul in checks does not make me a sales person(I am not even trying to sound haughty here, it just is...) Trust, a SALES person will be interested in you, your children, pets, dentist appointment and farm back sijui where... half the time, mwenye kichwa just wants you to sign the dotted line - a.ki! I do NOT care...not in a bad way, but see, I'm NOT a people person.... I enjoy listening to conversations and holding interesting FUNNY conversations with random folks both in and out of my head but that's not what I signed up for... before I plugged my behind into sales, i was a finance person... accountant...booooring.... i know.. 'matter of fact when i signed up for this, I absolutely did not know I was gonna be running around for my bread almost all the time....flipping out fabulous "glorified sales person" business cards at folks who did a double take and pulled out a haram.bee card when they looked at the title... hell, they might even have more bank than I do... lol
so anyhooooooooooo to cut a long story short.... I've been meaning to get into client service roles... roles that I could do and NOT have to go out and look for business(don't twist it, I am NOT lazy!) I just hate having to ask people for their business but I love servicing(get your head out the gutter) their accounts, general information, stomping out fires...call me, I put the F in FIRE MARSHALL... (again I've digressed...poot! help!!)

So REALLY...here's the thing... a position came up at the plantation read:work early this week at work, so my immediate boss tells me to look up some other colleague who used to work with us to come get it and am like HEEEEY!!! I've actually been meaning to get out of sales, and he's like hahahah! seriously call her up... and am like SERIOUSLY man... dude... I guess in his head he thinks she's going nowhere, she tops sales, what is she thinkin bout??!? so am like wtvr...alright. call up said colleague, she gets the job, EXACTLY| what I had in mind for me!!! how now!! I will not lie... I BAWLED my eyes out yesterday when i came home... I mean, she's a nice person and its cool that she's got the job, but cut me a twig man!!! I SERIOUSLY WAS looking to get out of this sales rut!! I friggin hate it!!!

So other colleague in department I wanted to get into comes up to me and asks me why I dint ask for it(I'd told her I was looking, so I gave her the above story) so she asked said boss... he retorts, but she's a top seller!!!!!!!!AAARRGH!!!! (It is NOT me!!!! I PROMISE!!!) so yeah that's like bummed me out right now.... more like a sucker punch right in my gut!

BUUUUUT!!! I talked to SO(I do lub this man!!) he was real sweet... and we have a PLAN...lol talked to a relative...wooosah!!! ten KO's right thur of how i should stop whining and seeing as everyone sees me as a top sales person, I should concentrate and work it....

I hope someone understands...I am not trying to be vain, I know, lots of people looking for jobs out there, I am blessed etc, etc, but this eats me EVERY damn day!!! I have so much potential... my brain is slowly dying... I hate sales... I really really want out and into customer service/CRM... trust!! I am what is in that JD!!! they just think am the other girl...

Jesus!! I need you to come through...

Whats for dinner: noodles and mince meat in honey mustard sauce *cooked with a heavy heart*